One More TIme...

All this while i'm only wishing for one more time... how long can i hold on this time? i thought this was something different but i guess it turned out just the same... its painful and worst of all is i cant do anything at all... why is it always like this? is this a 'prank' or something?

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Ouch! that hurts... what i'm to do now? it doesn't seem to be the right thing to do and people told me that... but i can't help myself from falling into this deep unknown hole... can someone tell me what is my next step? how long must this go on?

pogoshipoyo......???

'IT' had changed because of of 'SOMETHING'.. somehow i knew it when i saw that 'SOMETHING' for the first time some time ago...... but anyhow i feel that the situation will still remain the same like how it was...... untouched n unchanged by time...... only me... it definitely hurts but what can i do? yesterday was d last and i dont know when is it next... goodbye for now i guess......

Dream Come True....

A few years back, i can only look at my favourite artists through TV and listen to their interviews in radio while hoping that i am able to see them face to face ESPECIALLY artists from overseas as they come only once in awhile...

Now that i've grown up it's a different story.... hehehe! My lil sis will have to wait a few more years for her 'dream to come true'... =p

First it started of with Danell's promotional tour back in 2007... Then last year i got another chance to meet him again when he came to my college for an event...

As for NOW, it's all about BABY KIM HYUNG JOON!! Initial date for the fan meeting was 28th August and by the time i saw the announcement, the ticket selling was way over... =( BUT lucky me, due to some stuffs it was postponed to 9th October and i got my ticket today!!!!!!!!!! =D

Life is like a roller coaster ride to me......

First thing's first, Baby Hyung's fan meeting is postponed to October 9 and i really pray hard that i can make it... really hope to meet him in person! =) By the way, today is Merdeka Day!! sadly i did not realised it till yesterday when Nisha reminded me... how great can i be? haha! Hari Raya is coming soon and i can't wait till i go back to Taiping and celebrate it with a bunch of good friends in Azween's house... it has been years since i went there... right Ween? hehe!

Next, there was suppose to be a gig on October 2nd which i and Pat should join but there are no news about it so far... =( it had always been a dream of mine to perform in a band and i hope it will come true soon...

Thirdly, i will be joining Odissi soon if everything goes on well... it should be fun and i shall see what will happen during class... lol

There is a thing that i always wonder... is there a way which i can 'take' jealousy away from me?? i really hope someone can teach me how to do it... i know it is wrong to feel jealous but i just can't seem to help it... sigh...
And lastly, just when i thought it was all a dream, you came again... chenjang!!!!

kiss the rain......

What do you do if you miss a person but you can't tell them? The worst part is, you don't even get to see them... Ever heard of ' Kiss The Rain' by Yiruma? Listening to that while writing this gives a feeling that i myself can't describe...... Sad? Pain? Tired? Or maybe it's a mixture of everthing... Time had passed like the flow of water in the river but what is going on inside of me remains the same just like the rocks at the river bank... and it shall forever be at that position, unchange by time....... writing this down doesn't help me much but i definitely felt better letting it out.. if things turn out to be the other way around... i promise myself to accept it with a smile on my face and never regret even if i did not take the step that a few said i should... that's who i am and that's how i shall handle it......


~~ neoui dwaetmoseubeul poneungeotdo nan haengbokiya......

Confused, Restless, Scared, Nervous, Tired ke-gilababi-an...

I'm going crazy soon...

Kept on thinking about the same thing over and over and over again...

Submitted my VERY 1ST resume... i hope to get a respond soon...

Hoping to perform again...

Last but not least...... WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU??

I HATE MYSELF

I SAW YOU

SHE IS IRRITATED

SHE IS SAD

SHE IS CLUELESS

I AM.................. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO... can someone help me??

~~ Life sucks at this point... what am i to do?

The last song......

Life had been boring like crazy since i graduated... the only thing i do is eat, sleep, hanging out facebook and more facebook... My parents is working their a** off back at home and i'm here enjoyin my life.. what a great daughter i am huh? i need a job seriously but i just don't know where to start... i need some time to clear my mind because i'm sure my lack of spirit is due to my fear of my future which is a blur now... i need to do something soon!!

The last book i read was ' True Believer' by Nicholas Sparks which was about a month ago. i like his stories but that is so far my least favourite out of all the ones that i've read. i was back in Popular when i found out that David Archuleta's book is being released. i can't wait to get my hands on a copy of it! but i walked out of the bookstore with something else because the book has yet to be release in Malaysia.. my bad for not checking the release date properly. i was asking a girl there for assistant and she said that i might gave her the wrong title! Huh? That's kind of impossible isn't it since i checked it online?? Haha! But anyway, i got myself a copy of ' The Last Song' instead by none other than Nicholas Sparks again. i saw the trailer of the film and i wanted to watched it mainly because it was written by him and the movie has Miley Cyrus and another CUTE actor, Liam... hehe ( can't help it, i'm a girl.. =p)

I started on the book right after i bought it. i read the first page while i was in Popeye's with Nisha waiting for our movie to start... (we watched Killer by the way and it was good... =)) by the time i went home i continued reading it till i fall asleep.. i woke up and continued reading till 6a.m in the morning...! the book is seriously addictive! Ronnie was potrayed as an angry and rebellious teenage girl who had not spoken to her father in 3 years. she's the type that goes to club and hangs out with kids that parents will not approve but there somethin different in her as she does not smoke, drink or do drugs. the best way that i can describe her is 'never judge a book by its cover'... this is also why the guy in the story fell in love with her because she was just different... her brother, Jonah, a 10 yr old kid is smart in his own way.. he understands and realised things in ways that i find very mature yet childish...

i thought that the love story between the two main characters but i feel it is not only about that but also the love between a father and his kids.. the way the author potrays the love between them will seriously make the reader cry especially when it was towards the end and her father was diagnosed with chronic stomach cancer.. futhermore it is the lie that her mother told that cause Ronnie to hate her father so much at the beggining and also the very least time that they managed to spend together....

i've left a few more pages of the ending because it was hardbreaking to continue... reading the novel somehow make me feel i'm there seeing all that is happening around Ronnie... i still don't know what is the ending... will her father survived? any miracle will happen? but i have a hint that the two lovebirds will get together because i peek at the last page... hehe it's a very bad habit of mine when i'm reading... the reason i do it is because it feel that i need to mentally prepare myself for whatever that is going to happen.. i have a weak heart! lol

~ the movie cover~

~ one of the book covers

~ photos frm Yahoo!

p/s: hoping for a happy ending... please... please... =)

OMG! ANOTHER YEAR HAD PAST!!!!

Thanks 2 Miss Nisha... i started blogging again today.. and i started of Yahoo! blog... (goodness gracious... ) and i thought it's been a long time since i blog here so why not? Came here and i saw my last blog post was EXACTLY a year ago! Woh mee god! i did not realised how fast time had flew by! So many things happened in this period of time.. some good and some that i wish to bury it deep underground and not to see it again... First thing's first... I GRADUATED!!! Woohoo!! I'm happy for myself but on the other hand some friends of mine did not make it...=(
Taking a break currently from my studies..

Worked for 2 weeks as a PA.. It was nice writing scripts and all but i can't really travel so i quit.. but thanks alot to Vim for all the experience...=) haiz now im currently hunting up and down, left and right for a more suitable one with Nish and Pat... I NEED MONEY!!!! Especially for my dream camera... A DSLR.. Canon to be more precise...hehe I'm a big girl now and it's time to be independent and not always hoping for my parents only... They did so much for me so it's time to pay back... =)

Other things that had happened will be that i lost two of my close friends... What i meant was losing their friendships... Chrystal and Sugan... i really missed the both of you... Part of it was my fault and i'm sorry...

Life still has to move on isn't it? Hmm.... What else? Well, before all that happened me, Pat and Chrstal auditioned for Encore in March... Together with another friend, Samuel we formed Ignorance.. =) Throughout the competition there are many things that i've learnt and without full preparation(everything was last minute...) we actually won the competition! haha! Thanks alot to all three of you and i'm really happy to be a part of Ignorance... =D Hope that we are able to perform for this year's OO Night...

IGNORANCE IS YOUR NEW BEST FRIEND~!

~ TARC Choir~

~ Cultural's Night~

~ Malacca~

~ Cultural's presentation~

~ Pat's Bday party~

~ Jessie's Bday party~

~Unplugged 2nd PNP booth~

~Encore~

~ Last lecture for DBC2 ~

~ Uncle Pat's Bday party~

So much that i've experience and more are yet to come....... Bring it on! =)