Orientation Odyssey Night 2011 =)

This years OO Night somehow felt different than the last... less screaming and more bonding between the finalists and committee but behind the scene i wouldn't know.. =p There might be flaws here and there during the entire show but it was still great! the 4 Emcees were freakingly funny and good! =) Got to hang out with my friends and just sit back and enjoy the show... OO Night always has a special place in my heart maybe cause it's the first ever event that i got myself into...

As far as you were not there thinking you were, is still enjoyed myself surrounded by my friends...

One more event tonight.. Divas and Devas.. can't wait! and on the 26th of July will be the day that i got to meet my sweetheart eventually.. DAVID ARCHULETA!!!! <3 Leader is coming in August but too bad i can't go this time as it is a Monday.. guess i got to sit in the office while thinking about the other Green Peas who will be watching him at that time.. =(

July has got to be the most eventful month for me this year with dance, event shows, trainings, teambuildings... With a heartache and thoughts that is always at the back of my head, life has to go on while i try to enjoy it to the fullest.. yeeehawwww! *positive thinking*

hell i don't know what is wrong with me!

something?? Someone????? who can that be, i wonder... i have a deja vu about the history is going to repeat itself... sigh... here it goes again... no matter how much i wish or how much i pray things still goes the way it suppose to go.. but i think i'll be holding on this time... please give me the strength...

하지말걸 그랬어 모른척 해버릴걸
안보이는 것처럼 볼수없는 것처럼
널 아 예 보지말 걸 그랬나봐
도망칠 걸 그랬어 못들은척 그럴걸
듣지 도못하는 척들 을 수 없는 것처럼 아 예 네
사랑 듣지 않을 걸

말도없이 사랑을 알게 하고
말도없이 사랑을 내게주고
숨결하나조차 널 담게 해놓고 이렇게 도망가니까
말도없이 사랑이 나를떠나
말도없이 사랑이 나를 버려
무슨 말을 할지 다문 입이 혼자서 놀란것 같아
말도없이 와서

왜 이렇게 아픈지 왜 자꾸만 아픈지
널 볼수 없다는거
네가 없다는거 말고
모두 예전과 똑같은건데

말도없이 사랑을 알게 하고
말도없이 사랑을 내게주고
숨결 하나조차 널 담게 해놓고 이렇게 도망 가니까
말도없이 사랑이 나를떠나
말동벗이 사랑이 나를버려
무슨말을 할지 다문입이 혼자서 놀란것 같아
말도없이 눈물이 흘러내려 말도없이 가슴이 무너져가

말도 없는 사랑을 기다리고 말도 없는 사랑을 아파하고
넋이 나가버려 바보가 되버려 하늘만 보고우니까
말도없이 이별이 나를찾아 말도 없이 이별이 내게와서
준비도 못하고 너를 보내야하는 내맘이 놀란것 같아
말도 없이 와서

말도없이 왔다가
말도없이 떠나는
지나간 열병처럼
잠시 아프면 되나봐
자꾸 흉터만 남게되니까

Life is like a playground lighted with candle lights..

9 May 2011 is already a past tense... i'm officially 21 now.. the number 21 comes with great responsibilities and also lots of thinking... future is where i'm heading now... the road leading to it might not be that clear yet but at least i can see a little light shining through it... that is all that matters...

on a happier note, my 21st birthday was celebrated in such a beautiful way where share it with all my beloved friends... Priya, her mom, Chrystal, Patricia, Hema akka, Nisha, Jessie, Pravin, Sachit, Aathi and a new guy Jaya... None of you guys will be reading this but still... thank you for the awesome time... playground always holds a special place in my heart, and with candles.. even better =) and to those who wished me... thanks a million to you guys too! <3

working side, things are okay... teambuilding was awesome! that is when i realised how much i've learned by just standing there and observing people.. more to come! yippi! =)

Why? I just want to know why......

I thought this is different and yet it is still the same in every way... what have i done? i know i'm not an angel but why put me through the same situation again and again...? God, please give me a solution soon...

One More TIme...

All this while i'm only wishing for one more time... how long can i hold on this time? i thought this was something different but i guess it turned out just the same... its painful and worst of all is i cant do anything at all... why is it always like this? is this a 'prank' or something?

=(

Ouch! that hurts... what i'm to do now? it doesn't seem to be the right thing to do and people told me that... but i can't help myself from falling into this deep unknown hole... can someone tell me what is my next step? how long must this go on?

pogoshipoyo......???

'IT' had changed because of of 'SOMETHING'.. somehow i knew it when i saw that 'SOMETHING' for the first time some time ago...... but anyhow i feel that the situation will still remain the same like how it was...... untouched n unchanged by time...... only me... it definitely hurts but what can i do? yesterday was d last and i dont know when is it next... goodbye for now i guess......